Since I've begun blogging non-poetry at Dropping a Paradigm, and not posting anything here lately, until I do again, I'll post one post a week here from Paradigm.
The clock is running down, the batteries are dying, the car is running out of gas. I am surrendering to That which is. (No lie, just after writing that sentence, my cell phone sounded its low-battery warning.)
After all, ego is the big lie, and surrender is the only lie detector.
All my life I felt as if there was something better that I should be doing. But despite all my thinking, I couldn’t figure it out. So life happened.
But whenever I began to lose sight of that something better, whenever I was on the verge of going with the status quo, something rebelled within me (and without).
Ultimately, it was OK with delaying something better until the time was right, until certain responsibilities had played themselves through.
The time did come, but something better really didn’t. Instead something completely different did.
It’s unexplainable to those who may not understand, but let me quickly do so anyways. An energetic organization of consciousness; after evolving through processes of sense, memory, and instinct; and thereby becoming sensitive to the various forms and patterns of energy all around it; developed an ability to think; that is create a virtual reality within its mind. And in so doing, it created a separate sense of itself within that virtual reality. And at some point, it began to see that virtual reality as truth (belief), and that virtual self as itself (ego).
In turn, of course, there arose a continuous conflict between the actual reality and the virtual reality, or Consciousness and the Belief/Ego construct. This conflict can be called suffering. Suffering is like friction, in time may wear away the ego, and blow out! This is called an act of grace.
(Or, through the active grace of Self-Inquiry, asking Who Am I?, the same blow-out can occur.)
Then things begin to slow until surrender occurs. Stop.
The virtual reality and all its beliefs, and its sense of self, the ego, are seen through, and disappear. Reality returns. And action happens through intent or influence, desire or synchronicity.